I can't recall the exact date when I had dreamed of him for the first time but it was kind of shocking for me to have him in my dreams again.
So, in that day, I saw him. I thought of him before I went to sleep. I just didn't expect for him to appear in my dreams.
He was wearing a white shirt. The shirt he wore the first time I saw him. He was playing with my four-year old cousin. He was soooo close to me, I can even touch him if I wanted. But no, I just stared at him like as if I was memorizing all the details in his face. It was just shocking for me to see freckles in the part below his eyes. I know for sure that he doesn't have any freckles. Not a single dot.
If that happened in real life, I would have hugged him, I would have kissed him. But in my dream, I didn't.
But not only that, Nadine was standing besides me. She was watching him the way I did.
And just like that, I woke up. That dream ended. That beautiful dream has come to an end.
In that next day, I saw him with a close proximity, like how close he was to me in my dreams. It's like my dream came true, only that we were separated by a window. He was in a car, I was outside it. But the view, his looks, it was nearly the same except for the freckles.
And actually, he was wearing a white shirt underneath the opened plaids.
Too close to that dream. Yeah, too close.
Monday, November 30, 2015
Wednesday, November 25, 2015
Loving Him Was REiD
June 26, 2015-- the very first time that I saw him in flesh.
I have known about their concert in Laoag but unfortunately, I wasn't able to get a meet and greet ticket because the ticket price is quite pricey.
After our class, we went immediately to the hotel where the meet and greet was held. A lot of fans were there, patiently waiting for JaDine's exit.
We were situated near the gate bars. When people were starting to come out from the hotel, the roar of the crowd got louder.
And when that guy in white came out, we all lose it. It was just for a few seconds, or milliseconds rather, but it was enough to make us crazy.
November 23, 2015-- another chance had given to me.
A rumor was spreading about JaDine arriving in Vigan to shoot some scenes for their show. I was all ears for inside scoops so I can track where JaDine is heading.
Actually, I have a class from 2-5PM but fate was so good to me. Our prof had a meeting so he wasn't able to meet us.
We went to the lagoon immediately to watch their shooting but BaiLona is the one shooting their scene. I am also a fan of them so I was sooo happy to see them.
Bailey is the "fetus Justin Bieber" (as my ex-belieber fan tagged him) but I can't agree more because yes, he is like Justin Bieber. I was able to stare at him for long during their taping. My closest interaction to him is when he was inside the van. He was sitting near the window. The window was tinted but I can still see him clearly. I was looking at him through the window. He was just a window away from me. If the window was open, I can really touch him and smell him.
For Ylona, she is sooo cute. Although I wish that her make up was a little lighter because I want her simple. The first time I saw her is when she was still in the van. I looked at her through the window and when I saw her, I couldn't help but to shrieked.
After that, we went in front of the Cordillera Inn. A lot of people were also there.
And after patiently waiting for almost two hours (just imagine how tired and hungry we were), JaDine finally went out the door. The crowd was unbelievable! The cheer of the crowd were so loud you can even feel the vibration. It also felt like my eardrums were about to explode because of the intensity of the cheer.
He smiled and waved the moment they went out. I was really about to go insane.
After that, we ran to the Vigan cathedral because they are to shoot in there. We went inside the church but JaDine was in front of the cathedral, delivering their lines.
But there was a moment when they opened the door. Although I was metersssss away from their location, I saw clearly how masculine his back is. He even took a gaze inside the church so I saw his beautiful face again.
Unfortunately, we were sent out of the church for they are going to shoot in there.
When we went out, I was trying my very best to take just a glimpse of them but too bad, I wasn't tall enough to see what was happening. The crowd was really that big.
November 24, 2015-- a hopeless day turned a happy one.
By near 11AM, someone sent me a message telling me that they are going to shoot in the empanadaan. Because we just can't get enough of him, we ditched the seminar and went to their location.
They were inside the van when we got there. I also saw Nadine (through the tinted window of the van, thank you sunlight for lighting her spot so I can see her) and Bailey (when they slightly opened the door).
I really want to wait for them to get out of the van but I have a class which is a major one so I needed to go back to school.
By noon, they told me that JaDine already left to Ilocos Norte. I wasn't expecting anymore. I went home immediately after our class.
Just when I was surfing the net, I received a text from a friend saying that JaDine is still in Vigan and they're shooting in Calle Crisologo.
After hearing that, I was soooo frustrated. I was mislead by the info saying that JaDine went to Ilocos Norte.
I was in total bad mood. I was in the edge of crying until my sister called me saying that they saw the truck of ABS-CBN in a nearby brgy in our town.
My sister went to that location. I told my parents about that so I can also go there but they didn't believe in that info so we were left in the house.
I called my sister and she told me that the camera is rolling so she needs to stay quiet. Goddamn it, that was the time that the tears raced down from my eyes.
I was soooo frustrated. I was soooo .. I don't know. I can't even express how intense I felt that time.
I was sooo hopeless to the point that I was talking to his magazine cover. I was wondering if I was that bad in my past life for me to experience these kind of things.
My mom must have known. She called my dad to fetch us so we can also go to their location.
When we got to the location, a number of people were there, watching their shooting. I can only see Bailey, Kiko and Axel from our view. Until Nadine showed up. She's just really pretty. She's so flawless. Her jet black hair suits her well.
And the crowd got wild when James showed up. He faced us, smiled and waved. Goodness, that was one of the best moments of my life.
He was showing us his back. I was really contented just by looking at his back. Sometimes, I can see his side profile though.
Then he disappeared. But thanks to my observant eyes, I spotted him at the door. He's talking to someone and from what I can read from his lips, he's saying something like "in the car." He was really cute in that moment. He looks like a child asking his parents for something. I can't help but to admire him more.
Not long after, he went inside the car. I was looking at him through the tinted window. He was sitting in the middle part. He glanced in our part and I swear, I think I saw him looked at me. Immediately, I said "hi" and waved. If it wasn't that dark, I would have determined if he really looked at me. But just by the thought of it, I am about to go crazy. Whether he looked at me or not, I'm already contented.
A staff was stopping us to go to the window and take a glance inside the van but thanks to those who are taking pictures with flash, it gives light for me to see his face. Ohmygoodness, he is one heck of a handsome guy. His white complexion, his pinkish lips, his messy hair, his perfectly defined eyebrows, his eyes, ohmygooosh, his pair of brown eyes are sooo .. I don't know. Expressive?
Luckily, the staff went to check on something so I grabbed the chance to sneak a peak inside the van. He was busy with his MacBook. I even saw his iPhone saying 8:45 PM when it lighted.
It was dim inside, yes, but I don't care.
There was also someone sitting near the window. I was just a freaking window and one person away from him but that was already close enough.
I was able to stare at him for long. I saw how pointed his nose is. I saw how handsome he is.
Too bad, they already needed to go.
I am now very contented with my experience with him.
And yeah, I'm talking about James Reid,
Loving him is hard, with all the issues and stuff going around, I got hurt, yes, but I don't know. I can't leave his side just yet.
I don't know how long will this last but I am very sure that I am not going to leave his side for now. This is one heck of a rollercoaster ride and I am enjoying it (including all the downfalls).
I have known about their concert in Laoag but unfortunately, I wasn't able to get a meet and greet ticket because the ticket price is quite pricey.
After our class, we went immediately to the hotel where the meet and greet was held. A lot of fans were there, patiently waiting for JaDine's exit.
We were situated near the gate bars. When people were starting to come out from the hotel, the roar of the crowd got louder.
And when that guy in white came out, we all lose it. It was just for a few seconds, or milliseconds rather, but it was enough to make us crazy.
November 23, 2015-- another chance had given to me.
A rumor was spreading about JaDine arriving in Vigan to shoot some scenes for their show. I was all ears for inside scoops so I can track where JaDine is heading.
Actually, I have a class from 2-5PM but fate was so good to me. Our prof had a meeting so he wasn't able to meet us.
We went to the lagoon immediately to watch their shooting but BaiLona is the one shooting their scene. I am also a fan of them so I was sooo happy to see them.
Bailey is the "fetus Justin Bieber" (as my ex-belieber fan tagged him) but I can't agree more because yes, he is like Justin Bieber. I was able to stare at him for long during their taping. My closest interaction to him is when he was inside the van. He was sitting near the window. The window was tinted but I can still see him clearly. I was looking at him through the window. He was just a window away from me. If the window was open, I can really touch him and smell him.
For Ylona, she is sooo cute. Although I wish that her make up was a little lighter because I want her simple. The first time I saw her is when she was still in the van. I looked at her through the window and when I saw her, I couldn't help but to shrieked.
After that, we went in front of the Cordillera Inn. A lot of people were also there.
And after patiently waiting for almost two hours (just imagine how tired and hungry we were), JaDine finally went out the door. The crowd was unbelievable! The cheer of the crowd were so loud you can even feel the vibration. It also felt like my eardrums were about to explode because of the intensity of the cheer.
He smiled and waved the moment they went out. I was really about to go insane.
After that, we ran to the Vigan cathedral because they are to shoot in there. We went inside the church but JaDine was in front of the cathedral, delivering their lines.
But there was a moment when they opened the door. Although I was metersssss away from their location, I saw clearly how masculine his back is. He even took a gaze inside the church so I saw his beautiful face again.
Unfortunately, we were sent out of the church for they are going to shoot in there.
When we went out, I was trying my very best to take just a glimpse of them but too bad, I wasn't tall enough to see what was happening. The crowd was really that big.
November 24, 2015-- a hopeless day turned a happy one.
By near 11AM, someone sent me a message telling me that they are going to shoot in the empanadaan. Because we just can't get enough of him, we ditched the seminar and went to their location.
They were inside the van when we got there. I also saw Nadine (through the tinted window of the van, thank you sunlight for lighting her spot so I can see her) and Bailey (when they slightly opened the door).
I really want to wait for them to get out of the van but I have a class which is a major one so I needed to go back to school.
By noon, they told me that JaDine already left to Ilocos Norte. I wasn't expecting anymore. I went home immediately after our class.
Just when I was surfing the net, I received a text from a friend saying that JaDine is still in Vigan and they're shooting in Calle Crisologo.
After hearing that, I was soooo frustrated. I was mislead by the info saying that JaDine went to Ilocos Norte.
I was in total bad mood. I was in the edge of crying until my sister called me saying that they saw the truck of ABS-CBN in a nearby brgy in our town.
My sister went to that location. I told my parents about that so I can also go there but they didn't believe in that info so we were left in the house.
I called my sister and she told me that the camera is rolling so she needs to stay quiet. Goddamn it, that was the time that the tears raced down from my eyes.
I was soooo frustrated. I was soooo .. I don't know. I can't even express how intense I felt that time.
I was sooo hopeless to the point that I was talking to his magazine cover. I was wondering if I was that bad in my past life for me to experience these kind of things.
My mom must have known. She called my dad to fetch us so we can also go to their location.
When we got to the location, a number of people were there, watching their shooting. I can only see Bailey, Kiko and Axel from our view. Until Nadine showed up. She's just really pretty. She's so flawless. Her jet black hair suits her well.
And the crowd got wild when James showed up. He faced us, smiled and waved. Goodness, that was one of the best moments of my life.
He was showing us his back. I was really contented just by looking at his back. Sometimes, I can see his side profile though.
Then he disappeared. But thanks to my observant eyes, I spotted him at the door. He's talking to someone and from what I can read from his lips, he's saying something like "in the car." He was really cute in that moment. He looks like a child asking his parents for something. I can't help but to admire him more.
Not long after, he went inside the car. I was looking at him through the tinted window. He was sitting in the middle part. He glanced in our part and I swear, I think I saw him looked at me. Immediately, I said "hi" and waved. If it wasn't that dark, I would have determined if he really looked at me. But just by the thought of it, I am about to go crazy. Whether he looked at me or not, I'm already contented.
A staff was stopping us to go to the window and take a glance inside the van but thanks to those who are taking pictures with flash, it gives light for me to see his face. Ohmygoodness, he is one heck of a handsome guy. His white complexion, his pinkish lips, his messy hair, his perfectly defined eyebrows, his eyes, ohmygooosh, his pair of brown eyes are sooo .. I don't know. Expressive?
Luckily, the staff went to check on something so I grabbed the chance to sneak a peak inside the van. He was busy with his MacBook. I even saw his iPhone saying 8:45 PM when it lighted.
It was dim inside, yes, but I don't care.
There was also someone sitting near the window. I was just a freaking window and one person away from him but that was already close enough.
I was able to stare at him for long. I saw how pointed his nose is. I saw how handsome he is.
Too bad, they already needed to go.
I am now very contented with my experience with him.
And yeah, I'm talking about James Reid,
Loving him is hard, with all the issues and stuff going around, I got hurt, yes, but I don't know. I can't leave his side just yet.
I don't know how long will this last but I am very sure that I am not going to leave his side for now. This is one heck of a rollercoaster ride and I am enjoying it (including all the downfalls).
Saturday, November 14, 2015
Fangirling ...
I fangirl over Daniel Padilla, EXO, and 5SOS but there's something about James Reid that made me fangirl over him the most.
During the time that I was fangirling over Daniel Padilla, I entered a fandom where I even signed up to be an official member of the group. I even bought the official t-shirt. I was one of the most active members in our group here in our province.
The most prized possession I got from the moment I fangirled over Daniel Padilla was the signed album of Princess & I.
The thing why I am not that attached to my fangirling over Daniel is because of his on-screen partner, Kathryn Bernardo.
Kathryn is a nice girl but I just don't like her. I don't like their team up with Daniel. I even shipped Daniel and Liza Soberano during their Got to Believe soap opera because yeah, they looked good together.
One of the best days of my fangirling life was the time I saw Daniel Padilla in person. It was November 23, 2014 at the Centennial Gym in Laoag City. Thank goodness, my mother allowed me to go. It wasn't a night event anyway.
All they did is play basketball. Bonus is that, I even saw other artists like Jon Lucas, Young JV, Manolo Pedrosa and other more Star Magic artists. Alexa Ilacad was also there!
Although Daniel didn't speak nor I didn't have the chance to take a photo with him, I still treasure that day, and always will.
For EXO, I became a fan because of a friend. EXO is the only KPop boy group I've fangirled over. I am not really into KPop. I like KPop music, I like KDramas, I love South Korea. But, never did I plan to be attached in a KPop group for I barely understand them and to me, they all seem to look just the same. Lol.
All I got as an EXO merch was a t-shirt (WOLF 88 with Luhan print in the front). I just can't afford the shoes and the MCM bag.
Worst part of my experience is that when they have an event and our internet connection decides to be really friggin' slow like ugh, I am losing all my patience and all I see is a circle, just circling around and never gives me the video I wanna watch. Tss.
The most prized possession I got from fangirling over EXO is ther Overdose album. It was really expensive. I even waited for several weeks before I got mine but it was all worth it. It only had five songs tho. Hahaha. But I like the packaging. It was really nice.
Now, I do not belong in this fandom anymore. Issues came. Some members left (including my bias, Luhan) and I lose all the interest. I am not that attached to them anyway.
But I will miss OT12. The fun times. The sad times. EXO Showtime was one of my favorites. It shown the other side of EXO. It was funny, it was good, it was real.
Another is the Aussie band, 5 Seconds of Summer. I loved their She Look So Perfect song but I didn't become a fan of them just yet. It was only then when I saw their Don't Stop music video. Luke Hemmings was beyond handsome in that video that I searched them right up and there, I became an instant fan. Hahaha.
What I love about them is that they're crazy. Instead of being annoyed by their "green mentality" and childish acts, you'll just got to love them more.
I also like their music genre. Their songs are so catchy. It's not a hardcore rock, it's more of pop rock. I also like it when they released their song Amnesia. It's kind of a sad song but for me, it balanced their usual kind of catchy songs.
Only their album LIVE SOS is onhand with me and that is what I consider as my prized possession. 5 Seconds of Summer (their first album) was out of sight in the record store so I just bought that one. I can't really say that it's better but listening to it gives you concert feels. The ad-lib, the side comments, the cheer of the fans, those makes it wild and fun.
I do plan to buy their second album tho. But I'm just goin' to buy it when I go to Manila.
The sad part right now is that they've changed, especially Luke. Well, not really a bad kind of change but maybe I think it's too soon. I'm not yet ready for a matured 5SOS. I'm just goin' to make a separate blog post for this. Lol.
Actually, there's a good news. 5SOS will be having a concert in Manilaaaaa! The bad news is, I can't go. Manila is like 8-10 freakin' hours away. The concert tickets also cost like gold. Plus, I don't have any companion so I will just listen to their album on March 12, 2016. Sigh.
So before I get more emotional over 5SOS and their upcoming concert, I will now proceed with James Reid.
I am sooo hooked with him and I don't know why.
From the start, I've been a fan of JaDine, yeah, JaDine. I like them as a team. But when their show On The Wings Of Love came out, I came to love James as James alone. Although I still love JaDine as a tandem.
Maybe James' role is a big factor why I love him this much. Clark Medina, his character, is very charming. He is not the cliche rich guy with a bad boy look but his smile is enough to catch the hearts of girls.
July 26, 2015 is another most unforgettable day of my life. For in this day, I saw James Reid, up close and for free! I really wanted to go to their concert in Laoag but I know for sure that they won't allow me because it's a night event. But the important thing is, I saw him even just for a few seconds.
Everytime that I hear or pass by Hotel Luna, I remember him.
I swear to Gods, he is like a vampire. I still can't believe that I saw him, If given a opportunity, I would hug him. I really wanna hug him.
Also, despite the issues that he had been involved, I might get really sad and disappointed sometimes but I still wanna stay by his side for he inspires me in a way no one else can do. He inspires me in a different way. I don't wanna elaborate in details as to why. He knows it, if ever he happened to read my DMs to him.
And yeah, I send him DMs in IG. I started sending him DMs on November 1, 2015. It's not everyday that I send him DMs. Just when the times that I feel like it. But yeah, I really do hope that he already read my DMs to him.
It's actually my first time to be this understanding and supportive. Understanding in the part of his issues and supportive in the part of buying stuff and exerting all the efforts for him.
All I have right now is his perfume "to my Mrs. Reid." That was my first ever transaction online. I would really do anything if I really want something. And I also got the Candymag ish where he is the cover.
I am also planning to order a customized pillow with James' faces on it but I still have to think about it for it is a little pricey.
For his album, I don't have it yet. But I hope it would still be available the time that I go to Manila.
Fangirling is frustrating, it makes you cray cray, it makes you sad, it makes you happy. Never a single minute that I've regretted being a fan girl. Yeah, it's hard especially when you know that you're exerting a lot of effort and money for a person who doesn't even know your existence but it's all worth it because it's the happiness that they give me and that is one thing that cannot be bought.
During the time that I was fangirling over Daniel Padilla, I entered a fandom where I even signed up to be an official member of the group. I even bought the official t-shirt. I was one of the most active members in our group here in our province.
The most prized possession I got from the moment I fangirled over Daniel Padilla was the signed album of Princess & I.
The thing why I am not that attached to my fangirling over Daniel is because of his on-screen partner, Kathryn Bernardo.
Kathryn is a nice girl but I just don't like her. I don't like their team up with Daniel. I even shipped Daniel and Liza Soberano during their Got to Believe soap opera because yeah, they looked good together.
One of the best days of my fangirling life was the time I saw Daniel Padilla in person. It was November 23, 2014 at the Centennial Gym in Laoag City. Thank goodness, my mother allowed me to go. It wasn't a night event anyway.
All they did is play basketball. Bonus is that, I even saw other artists like Jon Lucas, Young JV, Manolo Pedrosa and other more Star Magic artists. Alexa Ilacad was also there!
Although Daniel didn't speak nor I didn't have the chance to take a photo with him, I still treasure that day, and always will.
For EXO, I became a fan because of a friend. EXO is the only KPop boy group I've fangirled over. I am not really into KPop. I like KPop music, I like KDramas, I love South Korea. But, never did I plan to be attached in a KPop group for I barely understand them and to me, they all seem to look just the same. Lol.
All I got as an EXO merch was a t-shirt (WOLF 88 with Luhan print in the front). I just can't afford the shoes and the MCM bag.
Worst part of my experience is that when they have an event and our internet connection decides to be really friggin' slow like ugh, I am losing all my patience and all I see is a circle, just circling around and never gives me the video I wanna watch. Tss.
The most prized possession I got from fangirling over EXO is ther Overdose album. It was really expensive. I even waited for several weeks before I got mine but it was all worth it. It only had five songs tho. Hahaha. But I like the packaging. It was really nice.
Now, I do not belong in this fandom anymore. Issues came. Some members left (including my bias, Luhan) and I lose all the interest. I am not that attached to them anyway.
But I will miss OT12. The fun times. The sad times. EXO Showtime was one of my favorites. It shown the other side of EXO. It was funny, it was good, it was real.
Another is the Aussie band, 5 Seconds of Summer. I loved their She Look So Perfect song but I didn't become a fan of them just yet. It was only then when I saw their Don't Stop music video. Luke Hemmings was beyond handsome in that video that I searched them right up and there, I became an instant fan. Hahaha.
What I love about them is that they're crazy. Instead of being annoyed by their "green mentality" and childish acts, you'll just got to love them more.
I also like their music genre. Their songs are so catchy. It's not a hardcore rock, it's more of pop rock. I also like it when they released their song Amnesia. It's kind of a sad song but for me, it balanced their usual kind of catchy songs.
Only their album LIVE SOS is onhand with me and that is what I consider as my prized possession. 5 Seconds of Summer (their first album) was out of sight in the record store so I just bought that one. I can't really say that it's better but listening to it gives you concert feels. The ad-lib, the side comments, the cheer of the fans, those makes it wild and fun.
I do plan to buy their second album tho. But I'm just goin' to buy it when I go to Manila.
The sad part right now is that they've changed, especially Luke. Well, not really a bad kind of change but maybe I think it's too soon. I'm not yet ready for a matured 5SOS. I'm just goin' to make a separate blog post for this. Lol.
Actually, there's a good news. 5SOS will be having a concert in Manilaaaaa! The bad news is, I can't go. Manila is like 8-10 freakin' hours away. The concert tickets also cost like gold. Plus, I don't have any companion so I will just listen to their album on March 12, 2016. Sigh.
So before I get more emotional over 5SOS and their upcoming concert, I will now proceed with James Reid.
I am sooo hooked with him and I don't know why.
From the start, I've been a fan of JaDine, yeah, JaDine. I like them as a team. But when their show On The Wings Of Love came out, I came to love James as James alone. Although I still love JaDine as a tandem.
Maybe James' role is a big factor why I love him this much. Clark Medina, his character, is very charming. He is not the cliche rich guy with a bad boy look but his smile is enough to catch the hearts of girls.
July 26, 2015 is another most unforgettable day of my life. For in this day, I saw James Reid, up close and for free! I really wanted to go to their concert in Laoag but I know for sure that they won't allow me because it's a night event. But the important thing is, I saw him even just for a few seconds.
Everytime that I hear or pass by Hotel Luna, I remember him.
I swear to Gods, he is like a vampire. I still can't believe that I saw him, If given a opportunity, I would hug him. I really wanna hug him.
Also, despite the issues that he had been involved, I might get really sad and disappointed sometimes but I still wanna stay by his side for he inspires me in a way no one else can do. He inspires me in a different way. I don't wanna elaborate in details as to why. He knows it, if ever he happened to read my DMs to him.
And yeah, I send him DMs in IG. I started sending him DMs on November 1, 2015. It's not everyday that I send him DMs. Just when the times that I feel like it. But yeah, I really do hope that he already read my DMs to him.
It's actually my first time to be this understanding and supportive. Understanding in the part of his issues and supportive in the part of buying stuff and exerting all the efforts for him.
All I have right now is his perfume "to my Mrs. Reid." That was my first ever transaction online. I would really do anything if I really want something. And I also got the Candymag ish where he is the cover.
I am also planning to order a customized pillow with James' faces on it but I still have to think about it for it is a little pricey.
For his album, I don't have it yet. But I hope it would still be available the time that I go to Manila.
Fangirling is frustrating, it makes you cray cray, it makes you sad, it makes you happy. Never a single minute that I've regretted being a fan girl. Yeah, it's hard especially when you know that you're exerting a lot of effort and money for a person who doesn't even know your existence but it's all worth it because it's the happiness that they give me and that is one thing that cannot be bought.
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