Was It Him or Naah?

Before I tackle the main point of this blog, I just wanna share that it's already 11:27PM and I don't have classes tomorrow. Since there will be a power interruption tomorrow, I felt the need to post a blog today and the topic will be about that guy I saw.

So it was during our Modern Physics class. I didn't enjoy the class today because all we did is to derive formulas. I hate deriving. I hate Math. I know it's weird for me to say that since I am enrolled under the Physics program and being a Math literate is really needed for me to survive this course but I can't help it, that is what I really feels. Hahaha.

I was already hella dizzy with the derivation. I felt some people were standing in front of the door. I looked through the window of the door and then for a moment, I think I was frozen.

There were two people. One was facing in our part and the other was showing his back. That guy who was facing us was soooo damn familiar. I stared at him for long. He was talking to the other guy, he's not looking at me so it's safe for me to stare at him for long. Then suddenly, he looked at me.

I was shocked. I didn't even think that I was the one he was really looking at. But he didn't break the gaze.

After looking at his face, after looking at his eyes, I really had a strong feeling that it was him.

Who am I even talking about? It's the guy I HAD a crush on when we went to Ifugao for a national competition. He caught my attention because of his leather jacket plus white tee plus black skinny jeans. The bad boy type of guy indeed.

We really didn't have interactions. It was only when he asked me if I own the cup of juice, that's all. And the funny part? He called me "ate" (sister). Like, what the heck? All I did is shook my head as an answer.

Yes. I also know that he's a year younger than me. I don't really want that I'm the one older. I'm childish so I want to feel security in my partner. I want him older than me. Wait, partner? How did I go to that part already? Hahaha.

And my  crush for him only lasted for 2-3 days. I don't stalk him anymore. It's also been 6 months since the last time I saw him.

Sooo, going back to the present. I was the one who broke the gaze since the back of my mind reminded me that I am inside a class and that I should be listening if I want to understand the lesson. But then again, I didn't fight the urge to look back at him ... again. And still, his eyes are still set into mine. Like as if the moment I wasn't looking, he was still looking at me and didn't really break the stare.

I was feeling giddy inside even though I'm not still sure if he really is the guy from Ifugao. But damn, how can I forget his face? Yes, its been 6 months. Yes, he was about 4-5 meters away. Yes, there was a window in between us. But seriously, I really think it's him. It was because of his eyes. I can still remember those eyes who, for once, looked at me. And if he was just a stranger who happened to stay in front of our room for awhile, he wouldn't look at me for so long considering that he got companion and they were talking.

My basis of saying that it's him is actually lame but my guts are really telling me that it's him.

Whether it was him or naah, it wouldn't change the fact that I felt giddy because of him and that he was the reason for me not to be able to concentrate in our class anymore. Hahaha.

But if it was really him, I'm glad. I hope he can still remember me like I remembered him. I also hope that I could see him again, someday, somehow, somewhere.